“Reflections on how God saved me out of darkness into His marvellous light”
One may wonder: How could one from such a heathenistic home be reached with the Gospel? How could such a one believe in the Living and True God? Well, we learn from this course that “there is something special about the work of the Holy Spirit in the hearts and minds of God’s elect. The Spirit successfully persuades, and He actually renews the will so that the act of saving faith takes place, not by the energy of our flesh, but by the power of God. This act of effectual calling is wholly of the grace of God and not the merit of man” (Knowing Salvation Reading No. 74).
One day, when I was about 16, a distant relative called Aunty Yew Lian visited me at my home. Before this visit, she had invited me to a Chinese New Year gathering for youths at her church, which was Bedok Methodist Church. Thinking it was some kind of party – I had in mind the worldly kind of party – where I could have fun, I went along with my Roman Catholic cousins. My first impression of the gathering was good. I found the young people in the church proper and well-behaved, and I enjoyed myself singing Christian choruses and playing games.
Aunty Yew Lian came with the sole purpose of sharing the Gospel with me. On hindsight, I really respect this brave aunt of mine who had the courage to introduce the Saviour to one from such a heathenistic background and whose grandfather was a medium known for his fierce and violent nature! What if I had converted to the Christian faith? Would she not be implicated? Obviously, she was fearless. Her concern for my soul motivated her to reach out to me who was a most “unlikely” candidate for salvation. But God had planned to save me that day.
That day, as we sat in the hall before the gods of my grandfather, Aunty Yew Lian bravely told me of Jesus and His love. She showed me portions of the Bible: “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God” (Rom 3: 23); “And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment” (Heb 9: 27); “For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord” (Rom 6: 23).
I was surprised to hear for the first time that I was a sinner and that Jesus was my Saviour. Before this, I had never given any thought to the destiny of my soul. I had just gone along with the belief of re-incarnation and was not too concerned about where I would go after death.
I had thought all along that Jesus was just one of the religious leaders like Muhammad, Confucius and Buddha. That was what I had learnt during History lessons when I was in Primary Five. I learnt that Jesus had died on the cross, but I was not taught in school that He died to save me from my sins.
Thank God for my courageous Aunty Yew Lian who was not afraid of my grandfather’s wrath. Because this godly aunt of mine feared God rather than man, I was drawn to acknowledge our Lord and His saving grace. There and then, I prayed with my aunty to confess my sins and receive the Lord Jesus Christ as my personal Saviour and Lord.
I do not have a chance to meet with Aunty Yew Lian these days, but each time I see her, I thank God for the special way He had used her to save me from the eternal fires of Hell.
Years later, when I joined the Bible-Presbyterian Church, it warmed my heart to learn of the Biblical doctrines taught by John Calvin and embodied in the acronym “T-U-L-I-P” – Total depravity, Unconditional election, Limited atonement, Irresistible grace and Perseverance of the saints. How blessed to know that God had elected one so unworthy to salvation even before the foundation of the world (Eph 1: 4-6). How comforting to know of God’s irresistible grace! He is our sovereign, omnipotent God, and no one can effectively or finally resist His inward call to salvation: “No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day” (Jn 6: 44). I am so glad that I responded early to His call to saving grace.
After my conversion, I furtively attended church. I was a secret believer for fear of my grandfather. But my fears proved groundless. When my grandfather finally suspected that I was going to church, he did not say anything. I had expected him to get really mad with me but he did not. Perhaps, he thought that I was just a granddaughter (rather than a son or grandson) and he did not want to restrict my religious beliefs. Thank God for His special grace in preserving me from my grandfather’s wrath.
Aunty Yew Lian sent a lady from her church to follow me up. Florence came faithfully each week after church service to guide me in my walk with the Lord. This continued for several months. However, after a while, I lost interest in the things of God. There were many worldly influences in my life back then. My classmates were party-goers and I became attracted to their worldly lifestyle. With my love for the world came a distaste for spiritual things. I began to make excuses not to meet with Florence. Despite her best efforts, our meetings eventually fizzled out. (… to be continued)
– Sis Helen Wee
(This testimony was written as part of the “Knowing Salvation” FEBC online course requirement – 16th April 2010)